I always feel really stupid when things fall apart and I try my best to be nonchalant about it. It’s like I feel stupid for showing any remnant of emotion that would prove that I cared because, in my mind, things got the way they were because the other party didn’t care to begin with and it all just ends up feeling like I’ve been duped. Like, “haha I can’t believe you fell for that and became emotionally invested.” And closure is such a bullshit concept because no matter how many times you go over the different scenarios in your head there will never be a fully satisfactory one and a real-life confrontation will in no way give you the results you feel entitled to. 

If there’s anything I’ve learned from things like this happening to me repeatedly it is that people suck sometimes and you can spend your life seething without the people you’re seething about ever knowing, but the best thing to try to do is to slowly forgive yourself and take a deep breath along with a look around you. The people that do care are still around and that’s the better way to invest your time than just thinking yourself into an angry stupor. 

Hopefully, that’s all I have to say about the matter anymore.